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The Light of My World

 

Image by BaylieMarie

I sat in the front row and you were way in back.
I showed up late most days just to see your face.
It was the best part of my day; the ten seconds from the door to my seat,
When your eyes met mine and just for a time it was only you and me.
If you didn’t know it then, I’m sure you know it now.
I love you.
Some fifty years later and your eyes sparkle still.
Same as they did on the night of our kiss,
When we bailed on the prom and jumped on ol’ Route 66.

We were somewhere west of Santa Fe,
I’d stopped to pump gas into that rusted Bel Air.
With the grace of a dancer you slid to the back.
You knew I was watching, as I tried not to stare.
My back to the car, I finally couldn’t take it,
So I turned around and tapped on the glass.
You came to the window with a smile.
I was grinnin’ one back so hard it hurt,
Silently mesmerized by those beautiful eyes.
The spell was lifted as the window came down.
I put my hands to your cheeks as I bent to meet your eyes,
Which seemed to be giving light to the moon.
You licked those perfect lips and fluttered those long lashes.
I’m no Einstein, but I ain’t stupid.
One hand on your neck the other upon your chin
I swooped in and met those lips with mine.

For the longest time I wished it would’ve been better.
Not the kiss, the kiss was more than I could have asked for,
But the gas station wasn’t the most romantic setting.
Looking back now, I see there is nothing more real,
And nothing more romantic than that night.
My beat up car, the smell of the gas,
That little station lit by the moon.
Or was it your eyes.
Every time I filled up the car,
Every time you smelled that scent,
We were reminded of that magical night that faded straight into day.

I never wanted that kiss to end,
But we were driving with a purpose.
So I reluctantly pulled away,
A final kiss for both your eyelids.
I paid for the gas and grabbed some cokes,
Only to return to find you sleeping.
I had never seen you look so beautiful.
You mumbled something as I started the car.
I knew it was,
“I love you.”
But you claimed you said,
“Drive slow, you.”

If it was the latter I didn’t listen.
We had to hurry to make it by the morning.
I drank your coke too, but I really didn’t need them.
Just knowing your life was in my hands
Was enough to keep me going.
It was a long race, me against the dark.
I turned off the radio, careful not to wake you.
Left alone in my thoughts.
Left alone in your silence.
I learned a lot from you that night.
You didn’t need to be awake for me to see you could trust me.
The silence said it loud and clear.

You turned and faced me.
Eyes shut, but smiling.
Sweet dreams of me I suppose or maybe I’m just dreaming.
You or the road, my eyes couldn’t decide.
I caught them fixed one too many times on you.
With the gentlest of touch I ran my fingers through your hair,
And spoke softly till your head began to rise.
Sorry I had to wake you,
But I needed to share the thrill and excitement before we came to our senses.

We had left on a whim.
It was stupid and reckless, but we were young and in love,
Which seemed to make it okay.
It didn’t matter then,
‘Cause for all we knew there was only an us,
And a long road ahead.
The air was still, early in the morning.
Our headlights were all that could be seen.
So I turned them off to scare you and instead you looked in awe.
The moonlight was ethereal.
So many shadows, yet so much light.
An oxymoron that is hard to describe.
Mouths open, eyes wide, and I flipped the beams back on.
We turned to each other laughing, oh how ridiculous we must have looked.

Lucky for us we were the only ones for miles.
Maybe I’m just exaggerating, but at the time it seemed the world was ours.
Only you and me.
A bond of hands.
A bond of hearts.
Rubber to asphalt.
The darkness slowly drifting away.
The last few hours were a blur.
We exchanged tales of our past.
You recalled your first kiss in the 5th grade.
I reluctantly confessed my jealousy.
You kissed me quick to let me know I was the only one to feel those lips now.
You wanted more.
I definitely wanted more.
It took all my strength to keep pressing on.
Passing place after place I could’ve pulled over,
But we made do with our fingers intertwined.
We had plenty of time for making love in the years to come.

That night was a bonding of souls.
A meshing of personalities.
A foundation laid for a relationship that would last forever.
Something the night itself couldn’t do
As the glow of morning started shining through.
Right on time we made one last stop.
Gas station again, same old trick and I kissed you through the window of my car.
This time I returned with orange juice and some Little Debbies.

Back in the car and back on the road with Flagstaff to our back we headed north.
What was left of the night started fading fast,
So the first chance I got we pulled off the road.
A scenic overlook where the Bel Air slowed.
You grabbed the drinks and treats.
I grabbed the blanket covering the back seats.
Finally it was time to relax.
We laid on the hood with civilization to our backs.
We sipped.
We munched.
And we said our goodbyes to the night.

For a fool hearted plan, it was executed with expert precision.
Not a moment too soon that sliver of sun came crawling into view.
We watched as it rose on those big ol’ canyons,
Turning the sky into an array of colors.
Bringing to life the land in a way the moon could never do.
Your eyes opened wide.
Those golden rays of light beaming from you.
I knew it then that you brightened the world.
At least you did mine and you never ceased to bring that light into my life.

The years have passed faster than it seemed.
We lived, we loved, we dreamed.
Our kids have grown.
Our kids have kids.
Life moved on, but we didn’t miss a thing.
I tried so hard to preserve that night.
It was our spark, the match that lit the fire.
The fire that still burns in each of us.
I never could sell that damn car.
So after the kids moved out I spent most of my time
Meticulously restoring that Rusty Bel,
Hoping one day she’d ring like the beauty she never was.
Sure I finally got it looking good
And we spent most of our retirement cruising around,
But it was today that it truly shined
As we relived that adventure through the night.

So here we are.
One last time together, looking over those massive canyons.
One last sunrise.
One last hope that all this can bring back those memories.
It’s been a long night.
Especially for this old man.
Hard on my body.
Hard on my mind.
Watching you as I tell this tale.
Trying to convince myself I saw you smile.
It’s been a tough road to travel.
Not just what was left of ol’ Route 66.
I mean the one that took from you all those moments we had created,
But both roads have lead us to this point.
And now the time has finally come for us to watch the night disappear.
It made me wonder though, what will the sun do when you aren’t here.

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Sunken Still

I was hoping to have this poem I’ve been working on done by now, but I’m still not finished…so here’s an older one I’ll post up in the mean time. Week #3 Photos will be posted later too!

Sunken still this night drags on.
Just like the last it’s come and gone.
Leaving me.
Deceiving me.
I sleep, but get no rest.
Under covers I try my best.

Put to bed my restless eyes.
Behind these lids they’re in disguise.
Wound tight; these ropes don’t hold.
My mind sets sail as my thoughts unfold.

Sunken still this life drags on.
Just like the rest I feel I’m a pawn.
I wish I knew more.
Wish I could do more.
I’m alive, but I’m a mess.
Afraid to dream I guess.

So I’ll let loose my fears.
It will bring me to tears
But it’s time I cried myself to sleep.
God knows I tire of counting sheep.

Lennon: The Auricular Artist

This is a writing for my friend Lennon Bone who has a great blog about life/music/and anything and everything that happens to fall into his brain. He is the drummer of a local Ozarkian band known as Ha Ha Tonka and has been a good friend throughout the years. I’ve been watching his band continue to grow and he’s taken on several side projects that are turning out quite nicely: Varsity Club Sunshine Coach / Son of Jerry / The Swayback Gents

Yesterday he blogged about an experiment he’s doing that involves both him as the musician/auricular artist and you/me as the listener to create a piece of art. He’s made a short audio clip about a minute long and all he asks is that you listen and take 5-10 minutes to write your thoughts/reactions to what you hear. If you’d like to participate go read his post from yesterday and give him a comment on your thoughts. I’d ask if you are going to do that go HERE or the big picture up top now so you’re thoughts aren’t influenced by what I’m about to write next.

Lennon’s Post

My thoughts on Auricular Art Pt. 1:

The sound of silence
Sharp and piercing it’s interrupted
Thud
Dull and repetitive
Opposing
Forward and Backward
Highs and Lows
Cut, cut, cut

Waiting

Deathly quiet.
Except the occasional semi engine braking down the interstate.
Pitch black.
Except the sliver of dull moon light coming through the blinds.
So still and calm I have to reassure myself that I’m still alive.
Thump-thump, thump-thump. Check.
Waiting, waiting, waiting,
But for what..

Kina Grannis Co-Write Pre Chorus & Chorus

This write up is to tell you about the Kina Grannis contest I’ve entered on YouTube and also to help you navigate her channel to find my lyrics and vote. First off here is the first verse written by Katem3 who won the first Co-Write contest with my Pre-Chorus and Chorus following.

Verse 1 (written by Kate McGill)
As I lay here on the bed my heart it speaks
I let it beat its beat, you feel the love it leaks
And I can’t describe just how much of it is for you and what you do
But if I could love just one it would be you

Pre-Chorus & Chorus (Written by me, Rafe Preston)
Yes it’s true that I love you.
Yeah and you, you love me too.
So then turn around, yeah, lay on down.
‘Cause I need you here.
Whisper in my ear.
Wrap your arms around me, don’t let go.
Our dreams will grow,
And our hearts will know.
It is love.

And here is the video I made so you can see how it fits with the melody. Sorry, I’m a rubbish singer!

To vote for my lyrics you have to do 4 things:
1. Have a YouTube Account
2. That YouTube Account must be linked to a Gmail Account
3. You have to log into the Moderator on Kina’s Channel.
4. Find my lyrics and click thumbs up. (It won’t count if you just thumbs up the video I posted on my site)

Now I realize it’s a bit out of the way to have to go to Kina’s site to vote, but here is picture by picture instructions on how to go about finding my lyrics and voting for them.

First make sure you are logged into your YouTube account and then go to here Channel. I have links posted on my Video and in the description or you can just click HERE!!

Once you are at here page scroll down till you see two windows. On the left will be the submissions for the Chorus and on the right will be here description of the contest and a list of scrolling options. You may have to sign into her moderator (highlights in red) using your gmail account. This allows you to vote on other people’s videos.

After you sign in go to the right box and scroll to the bottom where you’ll see a list of sorting options

Now just click “Video Suggestions” under “All Suggestions” (This will narrow the search as less people add a video to their lyric submissions). Then under that click Sort by Date and you should see me on that first page still unless someone has recently posted a video for their lyrics in which case you’ll need to click the next button to find me. Once you do just click the thumbs up to the right of my lyrics.

I hope you enjoyed my video and lyrics and I hope this little guide helped you figure out how to vote on them. Thanks everyone!

Song of the Day 6/30/2010

Wednesday will now consist of a song of the day. Since it’s the middle of the week I figure you might need a little something to get you through the rest of the week. Sure it’s just one song, but maybe you’ll like it so much you listen to it for the rest of the week. Or you didn’t know the band and decide to listen to all their stuff. I just hope you’ll like what you hear.

Today’s song comes from one of my favorite bands ever. It’s really hard for me to pick my favorite band, but these guys definitely fall in my top 5. So take a listen. It’s funny how you can know the lyrics and sing them and not even take it in. I’ve loved this song for a long time and it wasn’t until I posted the lyrics up here that I realized just how sad they are…doesn’t change the fact that it’s a great song.

Band: Margot & the Nuclear S0 and So’s
Song: Dress Me Like a Clown

Lyrics:
I am alive, I am alive,
And that is the best that I can do.
You go near your light,
I swore you were mine.
I’d take you back a thousand times.

Talk of the town you’ve been around,
if he is the man u want then go.
but tonight we’ll leave all our lovers behind
and try to live a quiet life.
My love is dressing me like a clown

You are an ass a snake in the grass
Vanity seeps from out your pores,
And baby its time to pay for my crime.
Nothing i say can make you mine,
Be that singing in key or runnin to me.
I can think it as good as you.

But tonight we’ll leave
All our stupid songs.
We’ll try and reach the hills by dawn.
My love is dressin me like a clown.

Tonight we’ll leave all our lovers behind
And try to live a quiet life,
Margot dress me like a clown.

Tonight we’ll drink to an early grave,
We’ll laugh but we will not be saved.
Someone has dressed us all like clowns.

Darling it’s sin. Where do I begin.
Putting your contact lenses in,
You see the lights
Scurry like mice
Reflect in the streets
And you pour words
Out on the roof.
Way to grow up
Turn me around
Then lock me up.

Baby you are an ass a snake in the grass
Vanity oozes out your pores.
Oh oh oh ohh
Oh oh oh ohh
Oh oh oh ohh

The Pursuit of Happiness, Art, Music, Photography, Film, Poetry, and Spirituality

Exclaim: You’re Alive!

I’ve chosen this title for my blog as I hope to post on the many reasons Life is good and I think we should share our joys of being Alive. Exclaim, shout, share your joys of life for everyone to…well, Enjoy!

In this blog I’ll be focusing on a few things that really put a smile on my face.

Art: I’ve always had a love for art in any fashion. I don’t practice any Fine Arts very often these days, but will do some sketching occasionally. If I blog about Art it will most likely be about another Artist I find interesting. I’ve got a lot of my photography on a great artist site called Bluecanvas. If you are an artist I highly recommend you setting up an account on this site. Here’s my profile.
http://www.bluecanvas.com/rafe

Music: There are so many flavors of music and I find myself enjoying quite an eclectic mix of tunes. There is nothing that makes me feel the emotion more than the simplicity of a passionate singer strumming with a guitar. I’m a big supporter of local music and tend to stay away from the Radio. Not that I don’t enjoy some of the music found there…I just find a particular joy in discovering music that’s not just handed to me via mainstream outlets. I might end up doing a Song of the week or Band of the week thing at some point. You can also expect a review of any new music I acquire. If you are curious as to what music I’m into you can check out my Last.fm profile. If you are a music lover like myself then look into getting a Last.fm account if you don’t already have one. It posts (they call this scrobble – you download a program that shows what songs you listen to) all the songs you listen to onto your profile and gives you stats like: Most Listened to Bands/Songs etc. I’ve had an account since Sept. 2006 and have scrobbled over 30,000 songs. Another cool feature is the Musical Compatibility. Go to any user’s profile and it will tell you how compatible your two music tastes are…fun to see how you compare with your friends. Here’s my Last.fm profile.
http://www.last.fm/Prafeston

Photography: Maybe it’s the easy way out, but my love of Art shifted at some point around the time I graduated high school to Photography. I’ve always thought I’m a creative dude, but in some instances I’ve had trouble expressing my ideas on paper or other forms. I have always had an eye for beauty, form, positive & negative space, and the unique aspects of life seen through our eyes. Photography has given me an easy way to capture these things. I recently started a Photo A Day Challenge and will post an update on a weekly basis with photos from the week. I’ll probably have a random post here and there about photo related topics and/or ideas.

Film: In college I was suggested by a friend to try out a Video class and I have thoroughly enjoyed making and editing anything and everything. I’ve posted many of these videos on my YouTube Channels. I’m hoping to start doing a bit more Video Blogging so you can expect to see those show up here as well. Who doesn’t love a good Movie? If I watch one I find particularly interesting or worth talking about I’ll give it a review.
http://www.youtube.com/Prafeston – Mostly Live Band Videos and College Projects
http://www.youtube.com/IamRafe – My new Blogging Channel

Poetry: Being a big music fan I have grown to love poetry and lyric writing. It’s not something I do A LOT, but I do like to write occasionally. I don’t have any formal training in the area so I feel like my poems lack structure at times, but I have found I have a way with words and rhythm that it seems to just come naturally to me. You can look forward to me posting old poems occasionally and new ones here and there.

Spirituality: I grew up in a Christian (Presbyterian) home and God has always been a part of my life. I’ve gone on quite the Spiritual jounrey since I was in high school. I’m very open minded about Christianity and Spirituality in general. As with all aspects of my life I’m a big monkey see monkey do or learn by example kind of guy and this has carried over into my spiritual life. I believe Jesus’ main messages were Love. I don’t push religion on anyone and I don’t think I have the biblical knowledge to even do so, but I do believe I can be an example of Christ by showing his love in all that I do…at least I try. I have fallen away from God some in the past few years. I’m a little unsure of where I am in life and where I want to go. I travel a lot and haven’t gone to church on a regular basis. It would be nice to find some time to do some reading of the Bible and get in the habit of praying again. Should I read something worth writing about or think of something spiritually related it might make it’s way into a blog.

Conclusion: I hope to keep this blog going as I’ve tried many times in the past to write on a regular basis and it just hasn’t happened. If you like what you read please subscribe and help me feel like I’m writing for a reason. Look forward to lots of posts on all aspects of my life, but in particular the ones which I have mentioned above. Art, Music, Photography, Film, Poetry, and Spirituality. Feel free to suggest a topic for me to write about as well. I’m open to any ideas. Get used to lots of Exclamation points! Lots of Randomly capitalized Words! And Lots of Ellipsis… 🙂